i'm soo tired...!!

hye guys!! it's been a long time since i last posted a post in my blog here. so, let's do it now! yeah!

just so u know that i've been very busy since the day i arrive in college. Lots and lots of homeworks and assignments. You barely have one day off. That's the method of the Canadian Pre-University (CPU) programme here. 70% is all based on coursework. All of the homeworks and assignments are all included in the 70% assessment. Screw up and you'll end up having nothing. Which is what i don't want. I wanna achieve what is expected of me. I wanna go to overseas universities. It is not all about pride but also for myself. My future!

after one and a half month living here, i personally feel that i kinda like the CPU programme though it is tough and challenging. I've become more confident and able to speak and present my project with more charisma and certainly without having the nerves. Also i find that TIME IS GOLD when u are in college. Time is always crucially. You do not want to procrastinate. First things first is my priority. however, all these tremendous workload is too much for me. i am mentally and physically tired.

especially with those pre-u musical practice which took most of my precious time. i regret it but i have my responsibilities. so, i have to not complain about it. it's me who chose to join the musical at the first place. but certainly, when u went home at 6pm everyday, do u have enough time to study? or do your homeworks? what else if u have assignments and project deadlines coming soon? this is too much for me. unless if i quit myself from the musical then all these will not be a problem. and if i quit, this will make the musical less one musician which will make life harder for them and i will surely feel the guilt there. i really need someone to give me an advice for this. :(

we have had our exams last week and next week, another exam is coming up. for the first exam, my marks are high but still low compared to my peers and classmates. the competitiveness is very high in college where most of your peers are smart geniuses from all around Malaysia. which makes me a genius too! haha. i did well on my first exam but i will try to improve on my second exam which is next week for physics and chemistry. i don't want to compare my marks with other's marks. i am more concern to improve myself and compare my marks with my own. that's how i do it here. yes i wanna be better than my friends but it is essential that you know your own abilities and to succeed more than what you expect from yourself (your marks speak for itself) is the more important thing. compare with yourself before comparing with others.

that's all that i have to say for now. i'll make sure that i'll update my blogs once in a while ok?

see ya later guys. bye2..